"Shabondama" icon to represent my angst

[arisha]

Things that are not awesome:
1) NaNoWriMo ends in nine days and I have only just now passed 10k. I'm not even really sure why this year is going so pathetically for me ... it just is.

2) The JLPT is in fifteen days and I am so completely unprepared. I am starting to seriously feel like I am going to fail. One of my co-workers asked me what will happen if I fail, and I replied with "Nothing," but ... I still don't want to. I'll really hate myself if I do. I don't want to have to wait another full year to take Level 2 again when it's already been five years since I passed Level 3!!

3) The above two points are frustrating me very much right now. :( I feel almost as if I should give up on NaNoWriMo so I can focus completely on the JLPT, but at the same time I intensely don't want to. ffffffffff I dunno. My next couple days off I just gotta BUST IT. And I have to ignore the temptation to fill up my days off with social outings, because I've just had an awesome four days off, but I definitely did not get any work done. :/

Things that are awesome:
1) I woke up this morning to a Christmas card from firecrackerrrr! <3

2) My co-workers being their ridiculous selves.

3) I've finally written over 8,000 LJ comments!! bahahahaha. >xD I'm pretty sure the last like 2,000 of those are entirely from July till now.

4) This song.

Comments

[the-wykydtron.livejournal.com]

Okay, I can't believe I'm saying this, but nano isn't the most important thing in the world. (Ow, that hurt!) JLPT is more important to you - and more helpful in the long run.

I HEREBY ORDER YOU TO ROCK IT!

[arisha.livejournal.com]

Okay I kinda think I posted this with the secret hopes that someone would reply in this manner, but now that you have, my reaction is all SHANNON HDUUUUUUUU

In conclusion: FRUSTRATION.

[the-wykydtron.livejournal.com]

I am a fan of your MJ icons.

I think you'll be happier if you pass the JLPT and fail nano than the other way around. That being said, I think you can totally do both - REMEMBER WHEN YOU FINISHED IN LIKE A WEEK?!? - but if you don't think you can, then I'm not going to bully you into trying to write more. :)

... Unless you secretly want me to.

[arisha.livejournal.com]

WHOOPS you got an MJ icon out of habit. >xD