Kelso! We thought you moved away! XD
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arishaI seem to have immersed myself in fandom-y goodness this winter break. Which I do enjoy, but at the same time it does have a tendency to throw me off-balance and make me all OCD and frustrated with regards to my future. (Besides the montage, the part of Treasure Planet that hit me the most when I first watched it on DVD was when Jim's mother tells him to think of his future and he says, "What future?" I may not be on my way to juvenile hall, but still I feel like that sometimes, too.) So perhaps for this entry I shall talk about things that neither H!P nor fictional. XD;
Well, allow me one thing. ^^; I watched the audio commentary for Treasure Planet and it was kind of interesting because instead of being simply an audio commentary, there were parts where they stopped the movie and showed a little behind-the-scenes clip about something pertaining to the current scene. I think I would have found it a touch more interesting had I realized those clips were the same clips you could access from the menu, because when I went to watch the commentary it turned out I had already seen like half the clips they show. XP During my viewing of the PotC2 extras, I realized that I'll probably never be completely satisfied with the extras of a DVD unless they showed behind-the-scenes clips for every single scene, and every single cut scene, and every single considered plotline and everything everything everything they could ever think to show us. Three-minute blooper reels are not an eighth enough for me. One of the PotC2 extras is half an hour (at least) long and shows maybe a minute of the principal actors, because it's all about the making of the movie before they started filming. And I sort of suspect that your average viewer would be totally bored by this, but the whole time I was fascinated. I'm still playing with the idea of going to film school, maybe it's a ridiculous idea, I still don't know, but I kind of think that if I did one day get the chance to work on the set of a movie, at least this part of me would be finally be satisfied. Like, can you even realize how disappointed I was to find that PotC2 only had one audio commentary, instead of the three the first movie had? I need my behind-the-scenes stuff so badly ... :'(
THIS IS NOT WHY I STARTED TO TALK ABOUT TREASURE PLANET ahahahaha!!! What I meant to talk about is that there is a part in the audio commentary where someone (I am terrible at distinguishing voices on audio commentaries, but it must have been either John or Ron, right?) was talking about how the scene in which Silver comforts Jim after the death of Arrow was sort of inspired by something that happened when this someone was younger, and a football coach was comforting him after a terrible game. And he was talking about how he could have rewritten that scene over and over forever and ever, and still never have captured the emotion he was reaching for, just because that emotion was imprinted so strongly in his memory and it's so hard to transfer something like that onto the page. I guess that's kind of admitting defeat, but even so it made me feel better about my own writing attempts. It's only rarely that I try to use that kind of raw emotion from my own experiences in my writing, because I find it really hard to purposely relive stuff like that, and the resulting passage is invariably disappointing, and then I get all OCD about it because I get afraid the bad writing will affect how I view the memory and take me further away from the reality of the event. So anyway, even if it kind of is a little bit "this is impossible! I give up!," to hear someone I really admire talk about being disappointed in their own writing makes me feel a bit better about mine. :)
That was longer than I meant it to be, haha. ^^; What I meant to talk about when I started this entry was my two days of productive goodness, after however many weeks of being a YouTube-addicted sloth. XD; Well I don't even remember what day it was, but I actually think it was late, late Boxing Day, when I typed up a bunch of writing from one of my notebooks that I recently finished. Usually when I type writing I am very perfectionist about it, as though if I fail to catch even one typo I'll spontaneously combust. But that was getting me nowhere fast so this time I just went for it and yay, got a lot done. :) Or more than I usually get done, at least. I like typing my stuff up because I like to reread it and I like to know it's getting all organized, but ugh, half the time I either forget I have that to do or I just don't have the motivation ... which is something I'm working on. :X
Yesterday was pretty exciting, hehe. :) I went to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
athena_crikey's and she played Kingdom Hearts II (which I beat today, also at her house! haha, I've been playing that game since March or something ridiculous, I'm glad to have finally beaten it :) ), then I came home and ate Mini Eggs (sooooo delicious, zomg; it's a good thing they're seasonal or they would be the only food I would eat, ever) while I watched some Escaflowne (episodes seven and eight - I wouldn't list either of them as a favourite but they both have parts that are fantastically awesome - and the second Club Escaflowne, haha, I am rushing through these DVDs when it's still mere days after our all-nighter XD I am sort of weirded out because I tried to watch them on my PS2, and they didn't work, and I tried to watch them on our main DVD player, and they didn't work, and I haven't tried them on my mom's player so right now the only DVD player I know that they work on is my brother's ... and it's so weird!! right? why wouldn't they play on the other two??? this is another thing that makes me OCD. aaaaaaah shut up).
Ahahaha, I like long parentheses. ^^;;;;;;
After Esca I watched my new superGALS! DVD and now I am kind of sad that I watched it all the way through in one sitting, hahaha. But I was in the perfect mood for that show yesterday. Some days I watch it and I think, "I like this why ... ?" But yesterday!! And this DVD had everything! Characters fake-catching on fire! Random declarations of "oh my goddo!" Yuya's ridiculous fantasies that I always get a kick out of even if they are always the same! Ran doing whatever the heck she wants! Tatsukichi's awesomely painful English! Miyu's torrid past! (The flashbacks even included a Yuya and Otohata cameo that I usually would have thought totally unnecessary, but this one I loved, hahaha.) And Aya/Otohata!!! Ahaha, I was kind of annoyed that that plotline took over TWO EPISODES when it was basically her being all "I have something to tell you ... uh, never mind" twenty-six times over, hahaha, but apparently that's how I like my unrequited love, nice and conventional. XD!!! AND THE JUNIOR DETECTIVES omg I love them. Why don't I have a catchy theme song I can sing whenever I enter a room? OBVIOUSLY THIS MUST BE REMEDIED!
I DID NOT START THIS ENTRY SO I COULD TALK ABOUT ANIME!!! XD;;;; What I actually meant to talk about is that after my three hours of anime, I decided that today would be the day I attempt my first T-shirt surgery!! XD My brother's favourite story, you should ask him about it sometime, is the story of the day we were watching the second Bill and Ted and I decided to make some nachos and I ended up spilling them all over myself, exxxxxcellent. So I took the unfortunate T-shirt that happened to and picked one of the easier (no-sew, ahahaha, I'm a pansy) skirt patterns from my new book and I got to cutting. I picked a stained shirt for my first attempt because I knew it would probably not turn out pretty anyway, hahaha. :P And it kind of didn't, I kind of made it too small to fit me as a skirt. After discovering that, I made it even smaller and so now it fits me as a tube top. Ignore the fact that I never wear tube tops? I can always add straps, I guess. Really I am just glad that I didn't give up halfway through, or that I didn't mess up the pattern beyond recognition, or anything like that. I have no idea how seriously I am actually going to take this fake sewing hobby of mine, but it makes me feel reasonably productive, so I guess it's better than watching TV, at least. XD;; Haha, it took me from midnight till two a.m. to make the skirt, and then till three a.m. to adjust it to be a top. Slow, hahaha. But still, I remain proud of myself for even making the attempt. :)
And then!! That was not the end of my productivity!! I cleaned up all the sewing stuff and then I went upstairs and wrote 1,000 words in one go, more than I have written at once since NaNoWriMo ended. Maaaaaan, I wish NaNo was every month, I felt more productive during the latter half of November than I ever have in my life. Sigh. My friends and I are doing 50k in January, and I am SO looking forward to it, but at the same time it seems sooooooo painfully faraway ... ahahaha. I guess it really isn't. XD Oh, but in that case, I wish I had started earlier with the getting back to my novel, poor thing is so neglected when I am working on these other projects. Haha, well, if my six-hour breaks between classes stay as they are, then I can always work on more than one project through January, yay. :) BUT ENOUGH OF THAT, hahaha, I was talking about last night! So I wrote these 1,000 words and only stopped because it was five in the morning, but really I wanted to keep going because I have the second half of that scene planned out as well and I actually am looking forward to writing it more than I was looking forward to writing the first half, because the second half has my favourite character (Sloan!! <333) in it. <3 This scene is, I dunno for sure yet, but I think it'll be pretty close to the climax of the novel, if it isn't the climax itself ... not sure, not sure, not sure. It's actually the very first scene I ever thought of for this novel. I thought of it while reading a web page that explained the French phrase "Casse-toi !" XD;;;;; Oh my gosh, I'm totally serious, sometimes I'll be reading language textbooks and one of the examples will make me go "!! That would make an awesome story." This phrase is not as specific as those phrases usually are, though, and so isn't it amazing that it managed to wind its way through my head and through all these other sources of inspiration to become perhaps the climax of a novel? Hehehe~ well, maybe it's a terrible novel and so that doesn't mean anything, but I dunno! XD
It's kind of funny, I never really even thought about the climax or the end for the longest time. And then one day at work I was washing dishes and I was just thinking about one of my characters (this is why I loooved washing dishes), and then I had this scene and I thought, oh man, that's my ending. And it was a huge thing because it kind of came along with a revelation about the character, so for a while I wasn't sure I was even going to go with it. Haha, this is actually the second time this has happened with this character. XD I'm always like, "aaah, weeeeeell, that could work, but do I really want to go there?" and then a month passes and I feel like if I wrote it any other way, it would be the wrong way. Haha. XD But then I still didn't even have a big climactic scene, and whenever I tried to think of one it always came out very Café des Rêves, and I REFUSE to write something that reminds me of that show!!! XD;;; Then just this past week I thought, "Hmm, I've written so much, maybe I should start thinking of how to wrap this thing up somehow," and I feel like it's starting to all settle into place, although there are still so many scenes to write (especially because I like to skip around, hehehe) and so many things to figure out and who knows, maybe next week I'll change my mind about all this anyway ...
Sorry to be so vague. :X Haha, but like I said before, I hate the way my novel sounds in summary. So bad, so bad. ^^;;;; But other than that, I absolutely love it. XD
Anyway. I had no intention of making this entry so long, but at least I only wasted an hour writing it. My today was not so proudly productive (besides the beating of KH2, if that counts, hahahaha!!), but that's okay, I guess I can live with it. ;) Now I shall leave you with a link to my current favourite H!P performance: Morning Musume's "Yah! Ai Shitai!" from their fall 2006 concert. I only recently realized how good this song is, after being unimpressed the first time I heard it. I think the dance is really interesting, in a way it reminds me of the dance for "Koi wa Hassou! Do the Hustle!" which I think is great. I think I liked Eri and Sayu's hug better when I had only seen the fancam clip, though, when I couldn't see Eri's great big smile at the end. It seemed more desperate, as though they were trying to present a darker interpretation of the song. I actually really love when one part of a song matches one emotion while a different part matches another - like Ayu's video for "Ourselves" being the creepiest thing ever even though the song isn't at all, or the lyrics of Gackt's "U+K" being rather sad when the rest of the song is so bouncy. But even though I'm a little disappointed that the choreography isn't quite what I gathered from the fancam clip, I still do like this MoMusu performance, and I'm glad 8nin got a concert of their own before becoming 9nin. :)
Ahaha, sorry that my plan for this entry failed and I still ended up talking about H!P and fiction. XD!!!
One last thought: I was reading about Disneyland today, as is my wont, and for one brief moment I was so excited for our February trip that I felt like I could cry. AUGH I'M SUCH A GIRLY GIRL.the_wykydtron, I will do my best not to be emotional like a pregnant woman while we are there, hahahahahaha. XD;;;;;;;;;;;
One last last thought: I was filling out my passport application today (late, I know, but I'm keepin' the faith here) and what do I put for hair colour? Maybe it's brown but I viciously pretend that it's blonde. ;_; I asked my brother what I should write and he said brown. Said I, "But you have brown hair. We don't have the same hair colour." Said he, "No, mine's darker." Said I, "So I must be blonde." Said he, "Your logic doesn't follow." BUT IT IS ALL THAT I'VE GOT TO HOLD ON TO--!!!!
Well, allow me one thing. ^^; I watched the audio commentary for Treasure Planet and it was kind of interesting because instead of being simply an audio commentary, there were parts where they stopped the movie and showed a little behind-the-scenes clip about something pertaining to the current scene. I think I would have found it a touch more interesting had I realized those clips were the same clips you could access from the menu, because when I went to watch the commentary it turned out I had already seen like half the clips they show. XP During my viewing of the PotC2 extras, I realized that I'll probably never be completely satisfied with the extras of a DVD unless they showed behind-the-scenes clips for every single scene, and every single cut scene, and every single considered plotline and everything everything everything they could ever think to show us. Three-minute blooper reels are not an eighth enough for me. One of the PotC2 extras is half an hour (at least) long and shows maybe a minute of the principal actors, because it's all about the making of the movie before they started filming. And I sort of suspect that your average viewer would be totally bored by this, but the whole time I was fascinated. I'm still playing with the idea of going to film school, maybe it's a ridiculous idea, I still don't know, but I kind of think that if I did one day get the chance to work on the set of a movie, at least this part of me would be finally be satisfied. Like, can you even realize how disappointed I was to find that PotC2 only had one audio commentary, instead of the three the first movie had? I need my behind-the-scenes stuff so badly ... :'(
THIS IS NOT WHY I STARTED TO TALK ABOUT TREASURE PLANET ahahahaha!!! What I meant to talk about is that there is a part in the audio commentary where someone (I am terrible at distinguishing voices on audio commentaries, but it must have been either John or Ron, right?) was talking about how the scene in which Silver comforts Jim after the death of Arrow was sort of inspired by something that happened when this someone was younger, and a football coach was comforting him after a terrible game. And he was talking about how he could have rewritten that scene over and over forever and ever, and still never have captured the emotion he was reaching for, just because that emotion was imprinted so strongly in his memory and it's so hard to transfer something like that onto the page. I guess that's kind of admitting defeat, but even so it made me feel better about my own writing attempts. It's only rarely that I try to use that kind of raw emotion from my own experiences in my writing, because I find it really hard to purposely relive stuff like that, and the resulting passage is invariably disappointing, and then I get all OCD about it because I get afraid the bad writing will affect how I view the memory and take me further away from the reality of the event. So anyway, even if it kind of is a little bit "this is impossible! I give up!," to hear someone I really admire talk about being disappointed in their own writing makes me feel a bit better about mine. :)
That was longer than I meant it to be, haha. ^^; What I meant to talk about when I started this entry was my two days of productive goodness, after however many weeks of being a YouTube-addicted sloth. XD; Well I don't even remember what day it was, but I actually think it was late, late Boxing Day, when I typed up a bunch of writing from one of my notebooks that I recently finished. Usually when I type writing I am very perfectionist about it, as though if I fail to catch even one typo I'll spontaneously combust. But that was getting me nowhere fast so this time I just went for it and yay, got a lot done. :) Or more than I usually get done, at least. I like typing my stuff up because I like to reread it and I like to know it's getting all organized, but ugh, half the time I either forget I have that to do or I just don't have the motivation ... which is something I'm working on. :X
Yesterday was pretty exciting, hehe. :) I went to
athena_crikey's and she played Kingdom Hearts II (which I beat today, also at her house! haha, I've been playing that game since March or something ridiculous, I'm glad to have finally beaten it :) ), then I came home and ate Mini Eggs (sooooo delicious, zomg; it's a good thing they're seasonal or they would be the only food I would eat, ever) while I watched some Escaflowne (episodes seven and eight - I wouldn't list either of them as a favourite but they both have parts that are fantastically awesome - and the second Club Escaflowne, haha, I am rushing through these DVDs when it's still mere days after our all-nighter XD I am sort of weirded out because I tried to watch them on my PS2, and they didn't work, and I tried to watch them on our main DVD player, and they didn't work, and I haven't tried them on my mom's player so right now the only DVD player I know that they work on is my brother's ... and it's so weird!! right? why wouldn't they play on the other two??? this is another thing that makes me OCD. aaaaaaah shut up).Ahahaha, I like long parentheses. ^^;;;;;;
After Esca I watched my new superGALS! DVD and now I am kind of sad that I watched it all the way through in one sitting, hahaha. But I was in the perfect mood for that show yesterday. Some days I watch it and I think, "I like this why ... ?" But yesterday!! And this DVD had everything! Characters fake-catching on fire! Random declarations of "oh my goddo!" Yuya's ridiculous fantasies that I always get a kick out of even if they are always the same! Ran doing whatever the heck she wants! Tatsukichi's awesomely painful English! Miyu's torrid past! (The flashbacks even included a Yuya and Otohata cameo that I usually would have thought totally unnecessary, but this one I loved, hahaha.) And Aya/Otohata!!! Ahaha, I was kind of annoyed that that plotline took over TWO EPISODES when it was basically her being all "I have something to tell you ... uh, never mind" twenty-six times over, hahaha, but apparently that's how I like my unrequited love, nice and conventional. XD!!! AND THE JUNIOR DETECTIVES omg I love them. Why don't I have a catchy theme song I can sing whenever I enter a room? OBVIOUSLY THIS MUST BE REMEDIED!
I DID NOT START THIS ENTRY SO I COULD TALK ABOUT ANIME!!! XD;;;; What I actually meant to talk about is that after my three hours of anime, I decided that today would be the day I attempt my first T-shirt surgery!! XD My brother's favourite story, you should ask him about it sometime, is the story of the day we were watching the second Bill and Ted and I decided to make some nachos and I ended up spilling them all over myself, exxxxxcellent. So I took the unfortunate T-shirt that happened to and picked one of the easier (no-sew, ahahaha, I'm a pansy) skirt patterns from my new book and I got to cutting. I picked a stained shirt for my first attempt because I knew it would probably not turn out pretty anyway, hahaha. :P And it kind of didn't, I kind of made it too small to fit me as a skirt. After discovering that, I made it even smaller and so now it fits me as a tube top. Ignore the fact that I never wear tube tops? I can always add straps, I guess. Really I am just glad that I didn't give up halfway through, or that I didn't mess up the pattern beyond recognition, or anything like that. I have no idea how seriously I am actually going to take this fake sewing hobby of mine, but it makes me feel reasonably productive, so I guess it's better than watching TV, at least. XD;; Haha, it took me from midnight till two a.m. to make the skirt, and then till three a.m. to adjust it to be a top. Slow, hahaha. But still, I remain proud of myself for even making the attempt. :)
And then!! That was not the end of my productivity!! I cleaned up all the sewing stuff and then I went upstairs and wrote 1,000 words in one go, more than I have written at once since NaNoWriMo ended. Maaaaaan, I wish NaNo was every month, I felt more productive during the latter half of November than I ever have in my life. Sigh. My friends and I are doing 50k in January, and I am SO looking forward to it, but at the same time it seems sooooooo painfully faraway ... ahahaha. I guess it really isn't. XD Oh, but in that case, I wish I had started earlier with the getting back to my novel, poor thing is so neglected when I am working on these other projects. Haha, well, if my six-hour breaks between classes stay as they are, then I can always work on more than one project through January, yay. :) BUT ENOUGH OF THAT, hahaha, I was talking about last night! So I wrote these 1,000 words and only stopped because it was five in the morning, but really I wanted to keep going because I have the second half of that scene planned out as well and I actually am looking forward to writing it more than I was looking forward to writing the first half, because the second half has my favourite character (Sloan!! <333) in it. <3 This scene is, I dunno for sure yet, but I think it'll be pretty close to the climax of the novel, if it isn't the climax itself ... not sure, not sure, not sure. It's actually the very first scene I ever thought of for this novel. I thought of it while reading a web page that explained the French phrase "Casse-toi !" XD;;;;; Oh my gosh, I'm totally serious, sometimes I'll be reading language textbooks and one of the examples will make me go "!! That would make an awesome story." This phrase is not as specific as those phrases usually are, though, and so isn't it amazing that it managed to wind its way through my head and through all these other sources of inspiration to become perhaps the climax of a novel? Hehehe~ well, maybe it's a terrible novel and so that doesn't mean anything, but I dunno! XD
It's kind of funny, I never really even thought about the climax or the end for the longest time. And then one day at work I was washing dishes and I was just thinking about one of my characters (this is why I loooved washing dishes), and then I had this scene and I thought, oh man, that's my ending. And it was a huge thing because it kind of came along with a revelation about the character, so for a while I wasn't sure I was even going to go with it. Haha, this is actually the second time this has happened with this character. XD I'm always like, "aaah, weeeeeell, that could work, but do I really want to go there?" and then a month passes and I feel like if I wrote it any other way, it would be the wrong way. Haha. XD But then I still didn't even have a big climactic scene, and whenever I tried to think of one it always came out very Café des Rêves, and I REFUSE to write something that reminds me of that show!!! XD;;; Then just this past week I thought, "Hmm, I've written so much, maybe I should start thinking of how to wrap this thing up somehow," and I feel like it's starting to all settle into place, although there are still so many scenes to write (especially because I like to skip around, hehehe) and so many things to figure out and who knows, maybe next week I'll change my mind about all this anyway ...
Sorry to be so vague. :X Haha, but like I said before, I hate the way my novel sounds in summary. So bad, so bad. ^^;;;; But other than that, I absolutely love it. XD
Anyway. I had no intention of making this entry so long, but at least I only wasted an hour writing it. My today was not so proudly productive (besides the beating of KH2, if that counts, hahahaha!!), but that's okay, I guess I can live with it. ;) Now I shall leave you with a link to my current favourite H!P performance: Morning Musume's "Yah! Ai Shitai!" from their fall 2006 concert. I only recently realized how good this song is, after being unimpressed the first time I heard it. I think the dance is really interesting, in a way it reminds me of the dance for "Koi wa Hassou! Do the Hustle!" which I think is great. I think I liked Eri and Sayu's hug better when I had only seen the fancam clip, though, when I couldn't see Eri's great big smile at the end. It seemed more desperate, as though they were trying to present a darker interpretation of the song. I actually really love when one part of a song matches one emotion while a different part matches another - like Ayu's video for "Ourselves" being the creepiest thing ever even though the song isn't at all, or the lyrics of Gackt's "U+K" being rather sad when the rest of the song is so bouncy. But even though I'm a little disappointed that the choreography isn't quite what I gathered from the fancam clip, I still do like this MoMusu performance, and I'm glad 8nin got a concert of their own before becoming 9nin. :)
Ahaha, sorry that my plan for this entry failed and I still ended up talking about H!P and fiction. XD!!!
One last thought: I was reading about Disneyland today, as is my wont, and for one brief moment I was so excited for our February trip that I felt like I could cry. AUGH I'M SUCH A GIRLY GIRL.
the_wykydtron, I will do my best not to be emotional like a pregnant woman while we are there, hahahahahaha. XD;;;;;;;;;;;One last last thought: I was filling out my passport application today (late, I know, but I'm keepin' the faith here) and what do I put for hair colour? Maybe it's brown but I viciously pretend that it's blonde. ;_; I asked my brother what I should write and he said brown. Said I, "But you have brown hair. We don't have the same hair colour." Said he, "No, mine's darker." Said I, "So I must be blonde." Said he, "Your logic doesn't follow." BUT IT IS ALL THAT I'VE GOT TO HOLD ON TO--!!!!
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DISNEYLAND
Date: 2006-12-31 11:50 pm (UTC)I was panicking this morning (okay, early afternoon, let's be honest) about what to write for Jano ... and then it hit me. OBVIOUSLY I HAVE TO WRITE ABOUT ANARCHY. I can't believe I forgot about him, hah hah! Except that I can see that story being quite easy either a comedy or a melodrama, depending on which angle I take, so I'm not sure how the tone will turn out ... whatever, it's Jano, it doesn't have to be coherent!
... This had v. little to do with Disneyland, but I already sent you a Disneyland e-mail today, and have little else to the point to say, other than that I was looking at my Aladdin case last night and can just imagine sitting in the Theatre again, watching the play.
TODAYLAND
Date: 2007-01-01 11:13 am (UTC)I love that before NaNo I was all "Write about Anarchy! :)" and you were all "NO!!! ANARCHY SUX!!!!!#!#!$!" and now you're like "I've got an idea! I'll write about Anarchy!" *cough*leastbestfriend*cough*
I was looking at my Aladdin case last night and can just imagine sitting in the Theatre again, watching the play.
I hope you realize that you may be sitting in the theatre again, watching the play ... every night for seven nights. XD
Or you could ditch me. Y'know. Whatever. XD