rage against the machine zomg
Aug. 2nd, 2006 12:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
arishaI am so annoyed at EVERYTHING today which doesn't make sense because it's not that I've had a bad day, I'm just ANNOYED in that pre-teen sort of way where all you can think to do about it is slouch in your chair and glare at people.
And my favourite co-worker, she really is my favourite co-worker but she's planning a good-bye party for herself and while I have no issue with that she's chosen a place downtown and omg I HATE GOING DOWNTOWN.
I mean, if it's with my friends or if it's with my mother or if it's to study Japanese (hehe, Bri) or if it's to see Tall Ships or PoA in IMAX (which I still haven't gotten to yet zomg ANNOYED) or if it's in the afternoon OR IF IT'S FOR KARAOKE <33333 it's not so bad. BUT THIS IS JUST MAKING ME MAD!!!! I am pretty well a billion times lucky that my closest friends prefer staying in to going out, because man.
Actually, haha, maybe this is stupid but I think I'm also annoyed at the idea of going to this party because I'd rather leave that night open for a chance to spend time with my friends ... I mean, yeah, I guess it's gotten to a point where I'd consider a good portion of my co-workers to be my friends, but I don't want to hang out with them all that badly, you know. I see them thirty hours a week as it is. I HATE having a job because I NEVER SEE MY ACTUAL FRIENDS!!!
I think most of my RAGE comes from the fact that I had an appointment to get my wisdom teeth looked at today, and this annoys me too because I thought I was okay with it. Like, the appointment was fine, nobody's forcing me to get them out until I decide to, there's no obvious reason I should have an issue with it. But I sort of feel the same as when I had my first appointment with my (actual haha) surgeon, and afterwards on the way home I cried. Just because I felt like, this is it, my first operation, and this is the downward spiral of my life and I'm going to end up spending all my free time in doctors' offices and I'm going to end up with all these pains and all these medicines and I'm going to end up unable to move without medical help and I'm going to be old and it's going to be awful and that's going to be my wretched little life. And obviously that's not true, it's not as drastic as I think it is, but I dunno ... I dunno if I'm a hypochondriac or what, but either way I haven't felt completely healthy since I was thirteen. And it SUCKS.
And my favourite grandmother is dead and I STILL feel like it hasn't even hit me yet.
And I'm sick of working but I'm not ready to back to school and I just want to have a summer like I could have before I was expected to bring in my own income. And all my friends and all my co-workers are quitting and they're all going to have time off before going back to school but the only reason I get time off is because people die or because I get my wisdom teeth out and THAT SUCKS TOO!! I mean, I dunno, I don't mean any offense or anything to anyone who said this, but hearing "Sarah, you have the week off? I wish I had the week off~" gets old really fast, you know? "I spent my week off visiting my grandma's grave, how would you spend yours," you know?
This is really juvenile but I wish I couldn't remember the end of The Halloween Tree ... the part where Tom and the others promise years off their lives if such a promise will allow Pippin to live.
IN OTHER NEWS, haha, I bought a nice skirt today. :) It's kind of ridiculous, I'm the worst clothes shopper in the world. I have to be in exactly the right mood or I get so cranky, and I can only spend like an hour shopping before I get sick of it and want to go home, and I'm so picky anyway and I don't really enjoy trying things on. WOW THIS IS MY ENTRY OF WHINE, EXCELLENT! But anyway, my mom and I went shopping with the intention to buy me a dress to wear to my aunt's wedding, but I got a skirt instead, so now I have half an outfit. HAHA EXCELLENT!!
Oh! The Neverending Story was on TV the other night, at some ridiculous hour, and it was awesome. I kind of wish I could see that movie again the same way I saw it when I was eight or whenever it was I first saw it ... because I totally believed it was so real back then, and I enjoyed it so much. And I still enjoy the movie but now it's hard not to be like, "Ack, that's an awkward camera angle," or "Hello green screen!" or "BASTIAN STOP BEING SUCH A WUSS!!" (I think my favourite part of the movie BY WHICH I MEAN MY LEAST FAVOURITE is how there are those moments where Atreyu arrives at some new place and then there's a shot of Bastian looking up and announcing the place all dramatically and then it goes back to Atreyu, I CAN'T EVEN GET OVER HOW LAME THAT IS!!) Also I guess I haven't watched that movie for a while because I was surprised at how early the swamp scene is. And how quickly Atreyu kills that monster! Dude!! Why did that part scare me when I was a kid? It's over so fast! Oh, and the sound cut out for like five minutes during the part where Atreyu talks to the turtle, hahaha ... I was pretty peeved. XD;
Anyway as I said it was like three in the morning when I was watching this movie and I was coming up with all these theories about how Atreyu is less a character than he is a symbol (haha maybe I meant "archetype"??), but now I have forgotten most of them. EXCELLENT.
Anyway, Atreyu is still awesome and he has an awesome name. <3
And something else that is extraordinarily awesome is that my friend who spent ten months in Australia has now returned! :D She called me while I was out dentist-ing today and it took my brother an hour after I got back to tell me that she'd called. He even wrote it on his hand and he still forgot! Punk!!
And I have been proofreading a book my dad is writing ... I told him it's sucking my will to live but I don't think he believed me. I like proofreading and all but a person can only read so much about genealogy and I think I hit my limit about five years ago. And this might be really ridiculous, but I noticed that I get really angry when I proofread. Like, in order to find problems and dig up the energy to make note of them, I have to be angry at whoever wrote the thing in the first place. "OMG YOU PUNK I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU MISSED A COMMA WERE YOU BORN IN A BARN LEARN TO SPELL ALREADY GEEZE!!" So you can see my life is full of anger right now, awesome.
I am cleverly writing this entry to disguise the fact that I am still obsessed with Disneyland. And also I have found a new obsession which is actually an old obsession, and that is my obsession with watching Shakira's "La Tortura" video over and over and over again. So for the past few days I have been opening the video in one window and a Disneyland web site in the other and it's all good. Despite my being ANGRY AT THE WORLD!!!@11!#$!1!
(The other day I wrote a note and stuck it on the kitchen table and it doesn't matter what the note was for but anyway I wrote "awsom" on it and my dad came by and said, "You spelled 'awesome' wrong. There's a 'u.'" HAHAHA.)
Edit: Okay I LIED I have to say just one thing about Disneyland. Last night I stayed up ridiculously late looking at pictures of the characters who wander their merry way around the park, and I found a picture of an Aladdin walking on the edge of a fountain. SHUT UP I couldn't even get over how in-character that was! You can't even DENY it! Hahahaha oh gosh. Okay I'm done. ((This picture from this gallery. Hahahaha oh my gosh it's not even a fountain. But it's still full of awesomeness and you know it!!))
And my favourite co-worker, she really is my favourite co-worker but she's planning a good-bye party for herself and while I have no issue with that she's chosen a place downtown and omg I HATE GOING DOWNTOWN.
I mean, if it's with my friends or if it's with my mother or if it's to study Japanese (hehe, Bri) or if it's to see Tall Ships or PoA in IMAX (which I still haven't gotten to yet zomg ANNOYED) or if it's in the afternoon OR IF IT'S FOR KARAOKE <33333 it's not so bad. BUT THIS IS JUST MAKING ME MAD!!!! I am pretty well a billion times lucky that my closest friends prefer staying in to going out, because man.
Actually, haha, maybe this is stupid but I think I'm also annoyed at the idea of going to this party because I'd rather leave that night open for a chance to spend time with my friends ... I mean, yeah, I guess it's gotten to a point where I'd consider a good portion of my co-workers to be my friends, but I don't want to hang out with them all that badly, you know. I see them thirty hours a week as it is. I HATE having a job because I NEVER SEE MY ACTUAL FRIENDS!!!
I think most of my RAGE comes from the fact that I had an appointment to get my wisdom teeth looked at today, and this annoys me too because I thought I was okay with it. Like, the appointment was fine, nobody's forcing me to get them out until I decide to, there's no obvious reason I should have an issue with it. But I sort of feel the same as when I had my first appointment with my (actual haha) surgeon, and afterwards on the way home I cried. Just because I felt like, this is it, my first operation, and this is the downward spiral of my life and I'm going to end up spending all my free time in doctors' offices and I'm going to end up with all these pains and all these medicines and I'm going to end up unable to move without medical help and I'm going to be old and it's going to be awful and that's going to be my wretched little life. And obviously that's not true, it's not as drastic as I think it is, but I dunno ... I dunno if I'm a hypochondriac or what, but either way I haven't felt completely healthy since I was thirteen. And it SUCKS.
And my favourite grandmother is dead and I STILL feel like it hasn't even hit me yet.
And I'm sick of working but I'm not ready to back to school and I just want to have a summer like I could have before I was expected to bring in my own income. And all my friends and all my co-workers are quitting and they're all going to have time off before going back to school but the only reason I get time off is because people die or because I get my wisdom teeth out and THAT SUCKS TOO!! I mean, I dunno, I don't mean any offense or anything to anyone who said this, but hearing "Sarah, you have the week off? I wish I had the week off~" gets old really fast, you know? "I spent my week off visiting my grandma's grave, how would you spend yours," you know?
This is really juvenile but I wish I couldn't remember the end of The Halloween Tree ... the part where Tom and the others promise years off their lives if such a promise will allow Pippin to live.
IN OTHER NEWS, haha, I bought a nice skirt today. :) It's kind of ridiculous, I'm the worst clothes shopper in the world. I have to be in exactly the right mood or I get so cranky, and I can only spend like an hour shopping before I get sick of it and want to go home, and I'm so picky anyway and I don't really enjoy trying things on. WOW THIS IS MY ENTRY OF WHINE, EXCELLENT! But anyway, my mom and I went shopping with the intention to buy me a dress to wear to my aunt's wedding, but I got a skirt instead, so now I have half an outfit. HAHA EXCELLENT!!
Oh! The Neverending Story was on TV the other night, at some ridiculous hour, and it was awesome. I kind of wish I could see that movie again the same way I saw it when I was eight or whenever it was I first saw it ... because I totally believed it was so real back then, and I enjoyed it so much. And I still enjoy the movie but now it's hard not to be like, "Ack, that's an awkward camera angle," or "Hello green screen!" or "BASTIAN STOP BEING SUCH A WUSS!!" (I think my favourite part of the movie BY WHICH I MEAN MY LEAST FAVOURITE is how there are those moments where Atreyu arrives at some new place and then there's a shot of Bastian looking up and announcing the place all dramatically and then it goes back to Atreyu, I CAN'T EVEN GET OVER HOW LAME THAT IS!!) Also I guess I haven't watched that movie for a while because I was surprised at how early the swamp scene is. And how quickly Atreyu kills that monster! Dude!! Why did that part scare me when I was a kid? It's over so fast! Oh, and the sound cut out for like five minutes during the part where Atreyu talks to the turtle, hahaha ... I was pretty peeved. XD;
Anyway as I said it was like three in the morning when I was watching this movie and I was coming up with all these theories about how Atreyu is less a character than he is a symbol (haha maybe I meant "archetype"??), but now I have forgotten most of them. EXCELLENT.
Anyway, Atreyu is still awesome and he has an awesome name. <3
And something else that is extraordinarily awesome is that my friend who spent ten months in Australia has now returned! :D She called me while I was out dentist-ing today and it took my brother an hour after I got back to tell me that she'd called. He even wrote it on his hand and he still forgot! Punk!!
And I have been proofreading a book my dad is writing ... I told him it's sucking my will to live but I don't think he believed me. I like proofreading and all but a person can only read so much about genealogy and I think I hit my limit about five years ago. And this might be really ridiculous, but I noticed that I get really angry when I proofread. Like, in order to find problems and dig up the energy to make note of them, I have to be angry at whoever wrote the thing in the first place. "OMG YOU PUNK I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU MISSED A COMMA WERE YOU BORN IN A BARN LEARN TO SPELL ALREADY GEEZE!!" So you can see my life is full of anger right now, awesome.
I am cleverly writing this entry to disguise the fact that I am still obsessed with Disneyland. And also I have found a new obsession which is actually an old obsession, and that is my obsession with watching Shakira's "La Tortura" video over and over and over again. So for the past few days I have been opening the video in one window and a Disneyland web site in the other and it's all good. Despite my being ANGRY AT THE WORLD!!!@11!#$!1!
(The other day I wrote a note and stuck it on the kitchen table and it doesn't matter what the note was for but anyway I wrote "awsom" on it and my dad came by and said, "You spelled 'awesome' wrong. There's a 'u.'" HAHAHA.)
Edit: Okay I LIED I have to say just one thing about Disneyland. Last night I stayed up ridiculously late looking at pictures of the characters who wander their merry way around the park, and I found a picture of an Aladdin walking on the edge of a fountain. SHUT UP I couldn't even get over how in-character that was! You can't even DENY it! Hahahaha oh gosh. Okay I'm done. ((This picture from this gallery. Hahahaha oh my gosh it's not even a fountain. But it's still full of awesomeness and you know it!!))
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Date: 2006-08-02 06:26 pm (UTC)You could punch something, punching something ALWAYS makes me feel better. >=D
Or you could watch your favourite Disney movie and have a cup of hot chocolate...or iced tea or something if it's too hot.
Or write. I find I do all my best writing when I'm angry or sad (even if I'm writing something happy, go figure, eh?). Or you could just carry on. That'd work fine too.
Wow, this comment is a ramble, I apologize. Hope you'll be doing better soon.
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Date: 2006-08-09 09:00 am (UTC)I didn't watch a Disney movie but the other day I did watch Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, which I would argue is equally awesome, hahaha. XD